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Depression and taking the next step

by The Mantis

I have been suffering depression. Its something cyclical. It comes and goes but its a constant companion.
It can be bad, it can be mild but its there.
I am learning to cope with it without medicament or drugs. Mainly without doctors. I like to think of my funeral when I am depressed and often I dream about it. And, while at the beginning I saw only my mother and father aside my coffin, (sisters were busy on business and wife was getting married that day), now I see a crowd. I see so many people at my funeral that the biggest square of Rome could not host them all! Everybody talks about how nice I was, how good looking, how smart and how generous. Some even say that I was skinny and a good lover! (bulls*t!). Nobody says anything bad. Of course when one dies gets all the wrongdoings of his life forgiven and forgotten, at least during funerals. Nobody exchanges business cards at my funeral, just copies of my latest emails announcing my decision to call the show off. Fed up of acting, fed up of rehearsing privately to be the protagonist, the main character of my life. Sorry but no more shows. We have shut down and for the grand finale I have invited you all to my farewell. I wont talk much that day but it was expected.
"How could have we possible avoided this?".
This is the main comment of those who have been particularly close to me during my life. I got a few answers... I always wanted why there are no pissoirs but "thrones" in the toilets at home... The Throne gives you the idea of judging and being wise, it makes you similar to a king. In some cultures kings and commoners dress a like, in our society even a destroyed jeans is different from another similar jeans... The only thing that makes us alike is when we sit on the Throne. Well, this Throne allows us to judge and decide. Thumb up, you live, thumb down, you leave. So, as it is quite painful to chop the thumbs off and as the thumb is easily replaceable by its "neighbouring " finger used to point and judge anyway, I would recommend to remove the toilet sits from the houses and if the pissoirs are not liked, what about a Turkish bog? You cant really drown in it... Just in the movies and the cartoons they do those kind of things.

"How could have we possible avoided this?".
Well, the bath tub! Come on! Lets get real! Why not a shower? Remove the bath tub... Too many movies, too many pictures, too many books. Very rarely I have thought about suicide in the shower. I am big built and I cannot even fit. If I fall I would make so much noise that my neighbours 2 levels below would run to see what ever happened!

The keys... why do you have the keys behind the door? if someone is depressed, the key is the most powerful tool to allow this person to isolate him/herself. Remove the damn key from the keyhole!

"I know how you feel... A friend of mine has gone through the same thing, and now he is fine" or, alternatively "and now he is dead" or "and now he is divorced" or "and now he disappeared". A friend... Everybody has got a friend who has been or is depressed, exactly like everybody has got a gay friend. How do you know how I feel? If you knew, you would have helped me out but the fact of shaking hand with a millionaire doesnt make me rich. Does it?

Perhaps you could have helped me if, instead of talking about your friend, you had told me that you were depressed. Even lying to me!

Razors... electrical shavers are better. Razors are too much of a temptation. Electrical razors, but not those you plug in the mains, those you plug in those low voltage stuff...

Neon lights, forget the bulbs! bulbs can be replaced by your fingers... And I cannot stand the smell of burning flash, anyway.

Medicines... Why do people keep medicines in the bathroom? Always wondered... Is it an invitation? Is it an association between being sick and feeling sick or getting sick? Not sure. Out all medicines from the cabinets!

How did I suicide? Close the bathroom door, with the key. I slashed my wrists on the throne with a razor but not before taking a cocktail of medicines and after lying in a hot bath tub... Thats it! It was easy, I had all the ingredients... Of course I didnt leave any note but, I promise, next time I will do it, I will remember to leave something behind... Something like "Sorry... Sorry for me, really... the reason I did it was...." In the meantime the people who will join my funeral will be more and more and I will get nicer and nicer, until next and next and next funeral.