A lovely weekend

This weekend turned into an unforeseeable one.

On Saturday morning I told Romano that I found the place and he agreed
with me leaving at the end of August/beginning of September. I have
been to the sea with Anneka, Mario, Flavio and another couple of
Anneka's friends. We have all been to one of her friends' Summer place
in Sabaudia. It was really a great weekend but the more I spend time
with Anneka the more I am afraid of being with her. The nightmares are
becoming more and more obsessive and Mario is always one of my
rapists. I am not sure I can keep seeing him around me. When I see him
is like seeing my rapist every time. I will talk to Anneka about it
even because I do not understand how come this strange friendship is
developing between her and Mario. Flavio is nice as usual and,
actually, now we found out that Anneka and him work for the same UN
branch in Rome but they just had never seen each other before. Except
for that the weekend was great but, unfortunately, we cannot be too
open about our relationship and this really annoys me. I just came
back from Sabaudia, I didn't sleep at all, because we pretended to
leave last night and, instead we checked in in a local hotel. It was a
wonderful night of passion! I love her, I really do...